I think more than anything sobriety is about choosing yourself over everything else. Over illusion. Over all the cheap shots at a disembodied existence. Deciding every morning that no matter what you are not going to abandon yourself. I am just one person so I can’t speak for anybody else and wouldn’t dare. Each person’s path is their own. But for me choosing to stay by my own side is the most humbling and most exotic decision I have ever made in my whole life. This world does not believe I should do it because this world tells me constantly that I cannot be trusted. But these are false messages. Manipulations which have been heaped on me since I was born. How tragic it has taken so much destruction, sickness, pain, and delusion to deliver myself to this place. But also how brilliant. You know? To finally feel something in you say, like – Yeah, yes, this. You. You I wanna be with all the time, all my life. Sobriety is a motherfucker. It is the closest I have ever come to actually living my own goddamn life.
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Just a few quick voice notes on sobriety as I live through the early days in real time. Something else which I am now acutely aware of since I trashed the booze: time will roll right on by you as fast as it pleases. You better notice it before it’s all gone. One shot at this, you know what I mean. If you are on the path, I send you every bit of love and strength and respect. It’s the best kind of work, the work of being human.
Allison Marie Conway 
Good morning.
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And to you. 🕊
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👌👏👏👏💝Everything seems easier when one can bounce off the bottom…🤗🌹🌹🌹
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I wouldn’t say easier exactly but I would say all is much much clearer. Thank you so much, mic. 🤍🤍🤍
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“This world does not believe I should do it because this world tells me constantly that I cannot be trusted. But these are false messages.”, and messages we sadly tell ourselves. Congratulations on your continued sobriety. You seem to be receiving powerful messages early in and writing them is of the utmost importance. I say so because having these messages recorded, first-person makes the hard days a bit more digestible. Keep doing what you are doing ☺️
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There is a uniqueness to a “beginner’s mind” I am very keen on not letting pass me by. And you are so very on the money – I know I need to hear this stuff in my own words and voice when I’m grasping for straws. Thank you for being oh so very kind and generous. I’m so grateful. 🤍🤍🤍
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Absolute Bravo!
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Thank you that means so much to me. 🤍🤍
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I’m glad. I never had your exact problem, but the ones I have had I dealt with in a way similar to your approach. I think it is the right way, and it is good to see.
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So far so good, one day at a time, and all that jazz. Thank you again so much for your kindness. 🤍
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Hello Allison,
This message is sent with my deepest thanks. Opening your heart and sharing the trauma of addiction is heart-wrenching. But it creates so many positive ripples. One of them has worked its way through my writing and ended up in my book – The Addiction Healing Pathway.
I too struggled with alcohol most of my adult life (so far). This book goes some way to my healing, but there is much more to be done.
Allison, with all my heart, thank you. Your courage has shown the way.
It is only a small token, but please find below a link to the book and a free coupon. Please feel free to pass it on to anyone who you think may find it valuable.
With my kindest regards,
Belinda Tobin
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1123957
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This is so incredibly beautiful and overwhelmingly generous of you, Belinda. Thank you ever so very much, I’m so grateful. 🤍🤍🤍
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