I think more than anything sobriety is about choosing yourself over everything else. Over illusion. Over all the cheap shots at a disembodied existence. Deciding every morning that no matter what you are not going to abandon yourself. I am just one person so I can’t speak for anybody else and wouldn’t dare. Each person’s path is their own. But for me choosing to stay by my own side is the most humbling and most exotic decision I have ever made in my whole life. This world does not believe I should do it because this world tells me constantly that I cannot be trusted. But these are false messages. Manipulations which have been heaped on me since I was born. How tragic it has taken so much destruction, sickness, pain, and delusion to deliver myself to this place. But also how brilliant. You know? To finally feel something in you say, like – Yeah, yes, this. You. You I wanna be with all the time, all my life. Sobriety is a motherfucker. It is the closest I have ever come to actually living my own goddamn life.
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Just a few quick voice notes on sobriety as I live through the early days in real time. Something else which I am now acutely aware of since I trashed the booze: time will roll right on by you as fast as it pleases. You better notice it before it’s all gone. One shot at this, you know what I mean. If you are on the path, I send you every bit of love and strength and respect. It’s the best kind of work, the work of being human.