
A springtime breeze slides in through my open window and it makes perfect sense to me even though it is still the dead of winter. The ground is the kind of mud that is so thick it makes a sucking sound when you trudge through in your rubber-soled boots. The fog was so dense yesterday I couldn’t see two feet in front of my face. The warm currents turning to a haunting white vapor as they met with the snow still cold and clinging, but slipping away, on the gray winter landscape. Wet train tracks. A bridge to nowhere as if suspended in thin air. A time of transition. A time of – what was the word from Eat, Pray, Love? Attraversiamo….. we cross over. An end which is a beginning. A risk which is somehow reckless and not at all reckless.
I pull a tarot card which confirms my wildest hopes for renewal. Artistic. Sensual. Grounded in the earth. The waters of my own emotions, gentle and placid, red and violent, in turns. We find ways to abandon ourselves. But something inside is always calling us back. The battle is as real as the pink streaks of light at dawn, the calamity of night against day. The pain and the danger, too. We were made for it, though. Built and designed for all of it. Distorted as this culture is. Twisted. Fucked up as its norms and pressures and false gods may be, we come from someplace so far beyond this world that there is no place we can point to. No star we can promise or claim is home.
Honestly, I am not about this ethereal shit until all of a sudden I am. My tarot tells me this is just the beginning. Of discovery, adventure. Of learning what I actually love, not what I’m told. Of finally knowing what true pleasure is, not what they sold me. Not what I have been swallowing down in gulps of hysteria, panicked of losing a life I only barely knew in glimpses anyway. It’s funny though, isn’t it? How sometimes a glimpse is enough. How if you are very, very lucky, the sweet fresh air will sweep through unexpectedly. And you will recognize it for what it really is: the first next breath you are finally brave enough to take.
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take care ๐น
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I will. You, too. ๐น
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thank you ๐๐
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On 4 Feb 2022 Fri at 14:33, Allison Marie Conway wrote:
> Allison Marie Conway posted: ” A springtime breeze slides in through my > open window and it makes perfect sense to me even though it is still the > dead of winter. The ground is the kind of mud that is so thick it makes a > sucking sound when you trudge through in your rubber-soled” >
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Always a master of words.
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Thank you for being ever so kind VJ. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
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Welcome ๐ค
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I keep swinging back to either listen or read your latest verbal strings of brilliance that so effortlessly transcends what we call being in the here and now into words that perfectly capture it. Fear, mania, a distinct scent of fog, raw reality, magical realism, whatever the fuck else hovers through usโฆ you streamline it into the reader. Straight into the soul, heart, fucking BE that lies in each new breath we take. I adore this journey of yours! Itโs humbling. Itโs inspiring. Itโs got a very specific โfuck yeahโ spirit. In other words I fucking love it!!!
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Alsoโฆ I am hunting for a virgin whiskey. Becauseโฆ life is too short to not know how it tastes, how it feelsโฆ ๐โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
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Oh please let me know what you find, you know your way around the whiskey. I still miss it like fuck but I can’t think about that. I will be enjoying this one tonight it’s called Monday https://drinkmonday.co/products/zero-alcohol-whiskey and I really like the heat going down. Haven’t found myself a virgin cigarette yet so I’m gonna stick with what I got. Haha thank you for making me smile. I hope your weekend is delicious. โค
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Oooh! That one looks absolutely mouthwatering! Do let me know how it tastes. โบ๏ธ
Itโs hard to track down a descent concoction that is not a virgin gin or rum. Iโve my eyes set on The Spirit of Bourbon https://honeoyefallsdistillery.com/free-spirits-the-spirit-of-bourbon-review/. I should get it in a few weeksโฆ Iโm quite excited to try it!!! ๐ โค๏ธ
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I will surely do so, and you too okay? Look at us. ๐ฅฐ
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I know! Loving this! ๐๐โบ๏ธโค๏ธ
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And of course Iโll let you know. I find it absolutely fascinating how they are trying to recreate that fabulous โburningโ sensation a good whiskey gives by using hot peppersโฆ ๐ณ๐
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I love that burn so much ๐ฅ
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As do Iโฆ ๐ฅฐ
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Omg I just misread that as โmainline it into the readerโโฆ. I love that you love it so. It makes me feel like I can do this. I can tolerate all these pin-prick-feelings and maybe even take care of them before they actually hurt me. Iโm so grateful to you for coming back. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
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I love coming back because itโs so worth it! Not only does my imagination get a magical verbal spa treatment, my soul purrs as well as it is washed over by the worlds created that are always so amazingly familiar. You are a brilliant healer. Thank you! โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
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And you, a gift from the starry heavens. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
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Amazing verbal poetry dear Allison. Good afternoon from Michigan.
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Thank you ever so much, dear John. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
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You are welcome dear Allison.
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I seriously believe you, and I share one heart. Every word felt as you took it from my heart and my thoughts. I’m just not creative and talented enough to express this in words. โค๏ธ
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Iโm so grateful and so touched to know how deeply this resonates with you. Thank you so much for listening. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
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You’re so welcome. โฅ๏ธ
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This is so very beautiful and wholesome! ๐๐
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Oh thank you so much for your kind heart and presence! Iโm so grateful this touched you. ๐ค๐ค๐ค
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Amazing post๐ thank you for sharing.
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