Perhaps you just pour the gasoline, toss the match, watch it all burn up in the tallest most beautiful flames. The old life, the old you, the previousness of so much of what you are still holding close to your timid chest. As the clock ticks on well past a time when time should have been up, I wash my face and brush my teeth. There is blood but only a little. There are scars but just a few. I cover them with cream that smells of lilac and lillies of the valley. My grandmother had lillies of the valley growing all the way down along the chain-linked fence which lined her driveway. She never drove a single day in all her life. Never needed to. She died too old and too young and had every single one of her real teeth when she passed on through.
As the minutes I’ll never get back fall away down the drain like shriveled skin cells, and dew drops which glisten in the foggy heat of a spring morning somehow burst forth against the morning light on the other side of this aching, weepstained earth, there are feelings inside of me I have never felt before. Mmm no that isn’t quite it. I have had these feelings before, of potential, of something secret and ancient just about to begin, but I took my hands and I smothered them so they couldn’t breathe. The difference now is not the feelings but the way I move around them. Toward them. Slow and steady and deliberate. When you stop threatening to kill them off, it turns out, they put down their weapons, too.
Allison Marie Conway 
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Beautiful, as always! I love the vivid and visceral descriptions.
Can I ask a technical questions? How did you add the audio feature? I’ve been using YouTube, but I would prefer to just upload the track, like you, instead of make a whole video.
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Thank you so much, Iām so touched you enjoy. š¤š
I use the voice recorder app that came on my iPhone then upload the recording to WP using the Media feature.
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I think they want me to buy a domain to do that. Hahaha. I might cave.
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That was such a beautiful piece! The way you are able to describe everything so vividly is amazing š
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Thank you so very kindly. That means the world to me that you enjoyed this. š¤š¤š¤
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I love your content. Itās so calming, your voice is calming.
Thank you for sharing this.
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This warms my whole heart to hear. Thank you so very kindly and much. š¤š¤š¤
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Iām new to this wordpress app thing. Mind if I ask, is there perhaps a private chat or so here? Iād love to ask you a few question.
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My email address is on my About page. While you are welcome to reach out, please know that I am going through some very heavy mental health shit right now and I am not answering many questions. Thank you again for listening. x
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That is fine. I would just like to get into contact with you about what you write about. Thank you.
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