There is beauty in the madness behind your eyes. I can taste it as if my body were made entirely of tongues.
I’m sorry I make you want bad things. I’m sorry I’m not good enough for you and I complicate even the messiest of messes. I’m at the center of the cyclone at the bottom of the bottle and I can’t feel a thing.
‘Hate’ is a strong word but you use it anyway just to see if anything at all will stick. Words like knives against the wall. Throats like broken glass.
I know I can’t write my way out of this but maybe if I can get you off, I can write you in. You tell me I’m not in control of you. I’m not in control of myself and it’s a problem. I’m always the problem.
And you. You’re never the solution even though I try so hard to make you a piece which will fit inside this heart of mine which sputters and skips along the empty roads so few ventured to follow me down over the years. But you will never fit. And the roads you want to wander down are yours and yours alone.
Time is a tricky thing, you understand. There’s the time pulsing in your hot little hands and then there’s the time measured in terrible mistakes and I’m afraid I’m running out of both.
If you leave me now I can take it, I just don’t know it yet. If you walk out that door I will lock it behind you and unhinge myself from what’s left of my mind.
But my body will remain. This fucking body which screams and screams your name.
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Allison Marie Conway 
It’s not my intention to become a nagging and persistent flatter of your works, Allison, but I have no choice but to repeat it again: You are a brilliant writer, with a very special creative talent.
Have a nice weekend!
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I must tell you, I very much like your flattery. Perhaps that makes me shameful but it is true nonetheless. I am so humbled and so grateful to you each time you pop in to see my little creations. ❤ ❤
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Maybe a different kind of winter is all a body needs.
Ace, cuz.
[my space trash plate is clean]
xo
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There is a warmth in your kind comment I am so grateful for – it is perfect, cuz. ❤
{how lovely to know this! I so hope you found it a little bit interesting} xo
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My pleasure, AMC. Hope you’re having a great weekend. Do you still have weekends or rather a continuous one? You have some cool writings on the go of late – something clearly suits you.
xo
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I do still have weekends, yes, and this one is rolling right along, gray as it may be….how about you? Thank you for saying my writings are cool. 🙂 You are a joy. xo
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Loved this
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I’m so glad you did, thank you so much.
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My pleasure
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